Wednesday, July 11, 2007
i've eaten ice cream two days in a row O_o !!! aargh...i turn into this bottomless pit during that time of the month. yesterday was lunch with grammy at Curry Wok, and everyone who has eaten there at least once knows your food just seems to disappear the minute it is served onto the table. and after that heavy lunch i proceeded to fall dead asleep on grammy's bed for two hours before hurrying off to FOH. when FOH wrapped up at about 11 plus i finished some black sesame and cream cheese bun which was supposed to be my breakfast. i'm turning into miss piggy with a fat face =(
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dad wanted to make sure that jie passed her driving test on her own merit, so he made jie pick up grammy at tanglin, then drive us to coronation where Curry Wok was at. now i know i'm very mean to jie and i call her a lot of stupid names and make fun of her driving and all, but i seriously think that she would've done a better job if not for dad sitting in the passenger seat and grilling her non-stop. he kept telling her to look at a hundred and one things, then proceeded to tick her off for everything which she did not do/ was doing wrong. mum was glaring at me as i openly rolled my eyes in the back, but my decision is sealed:
unless i'm deathly bored or deathly desperate (i.e. they cancel all bus services plying my estate), i will only take up driving when i'm officially not staying with my parents. spare me the grilling. i'm not at patient as jie, and if either of them start on me i think i will actually pull the hand brake, grab my bag and take a bus to wherever we have to go.
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i'm listening to jie discuss what classes to take with her elite LKC scholar bunch and it's bordering on the point of ludicrous as the phone calls increase. so jie's really excited about taking law and all that (i honestly feel she's just hopping on the bandwagon of "new and hip" in SMU) and is debating with her coursemate whether they should bid for a module taught by an ex-judge or an NUS import. i think they were comparing both lecturers' CVs and all that. it's quite alarming how much rogue power "chewrens" have "nowsadays" (thank you Charles), but i guess it ain't helping with technology. sure, you don't want to get stuck with monotone drone of a stick for a lecturer for 3 months but hmm...comparing lecturers' CVs... i personally think that's a bit scary.
as far as i can tell, i CAN wait for the FASS term to start. and once it starts i'd probably can't wait for each term to END. unlike my over-enthusiastic sister, i'm actually not looking foward to the start of the school term. it's not so much the fact that i won't be able to enjoy my couch potato life and all, but it's just been so difficult to muster the same kind of 'yippee school!' excitement i had before i began term in college. i mean, heck, i don't even know how to bid for modules and how everything's supposed to work. so ya.... the worrying unfamiliarity of varsity life (i.e. getting to the bloody campus, bidding for those damn courses... like why the hell bid for them? i survived the A levels isn't that enough?!) is part of the reason why going to FASS is really a lacklustre thing for me.
another reason is .... well.. i know i chose FASS and all, but the sludge of not having a hands-on TS programme is eating at my ass. i'm hoping i'll get some exposure of work onstage again, even though i hate acting and all, because i'll just die having to sit on my ass to read about something which is meant to be PERFORMED. i got very moody and depressed in my contemplation and jie's holier-than-thou lecture didn't help. princess is being very patient and accomodating and doesn't fail to comfort me and assure me that it's not that bad, and the worse thing is, i know it's not that bad, but.....sigh...it's just FASS.
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my left knee is clicking painfully and i'm crossing my fingers and hoping that it's not dance which is the cause.
just got seized by a sudden panic: what if i am forced to change my from my love-soccer-and-still-play-badly ways?
~Love
